Hai Tao's Blog

Total Work Out in 30 days

2007-04-20T20:58:00.001Z

I just ordered Proxmax Protein Powdered and Thermobol, the metabolism enhancer, now, need start total work out, I hope I can see some dramatic result within this month. I guess I am crazy, have my CFA exam on 2nd of June. But isn't it fun to challenge body and mind at same time. Well, let's see what I can achieve in one month. Going to measure my waist each day, and 3 times a week weight lifting, I will record everything to check my progress. CV training every second day, to increase my metabolism. Going to be a rough week, but I am sure, if I did everything right, I will set my body into shape once for all. Anyway, good luck to me..

First time in at least 10 years

2006-03-26T16:36:00.000Z

I just had big street fight. It started by me try to tell some drunken lady stop assaulting one of female staff work for me last night. Well, I guess I am very tall and handsome, so very easy to attract attention seeker who want to beat up such beautiful man, a random punch landed on my face by that lady. I was shocked for one second; also the staff tries to stop me fight back at same time. But she keeps coming, my natural instinct kicked in, one quick kick she is on the ground. Then, I use the Bruce Lee feet movement to make my body change position rapidly ready for more fight, because I already saw many of her friend is coming. I did shock them a bit, so they stoped try to get close to me a moment, due to my very impressive move (learned from movie), then they start throwing things. Luckily enough there is nothing direct hit on me, except I did taste some curry from our shop, which is reasonable for circumstance like that.
Two people of our shop coming out, like me Northern man, take no shit from people once get attacked on. At first they told me to go back shop call the police. Same time, 4 or 5 guys come up, I shout at them, I said, stop and tell them, stop assaulting us, we only try to defend, we want no trouble, (how calm head is that). Well, they actually listen to me, stop approach closer to me. However, again, the main trouble maker start attack again. Well, I run really fast to the shop (not scared), try to call the police, because it is out of hand now. After 1 or 2 minutes of phone call with 999, me back to the street. This time, two of our fighter fighting with one of their team each. However, 2 or 3 basterd is attacking them at back, without hesitation, me run up, and lay down one of the guy immediately, (god I am that good), and push over the other guy, so our staff can concentrate beating up the guy in their hands. Then I turn around, see one of the trouble maker is attacking two of our female stuff, but she is not very lucky, our female staff come from northern china too. Two of them beat her on the ground, so me walk up there, stop their struggle, cos I saw the police come.
Well, don't want to write any more now, the police caught 4 of them. There are about 4 or 3 more in the fight flee away. But it is ok, it is not like police can do anything, because no one injured.
The moral of story, I should try not protect people from those lowly educate punk unless it is very serious situation, because they like fight with people like me. I am pretty good defend myself, but I really don't have gangster in my heart, so it is hard for me cause them some seriously body damage. Maybe that is good thing, charge for manslaughter could affect my career which much more interest than street fight. Anyway, this is first time in at least 10 years I had a fight, not something I really dream for it, but at least it filled some gap of my life.

2006-03-03T12:34:00.000Z

Here you are, some test score of mine about my life, you can take it too. but I doubt the accuracy of it. cos, I really care about my family and friend.

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	7.3
Mind:	6.6
Body:	9.2
Spirit:	7
Friends/Family:	4.4
Love:	5.4
Finance:	6.7
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Yap, I am back

2006-02-28T15:34:00.000Z

Yap, weight is back again, today's take 93.4kg, Good stuff, Ok, but this is
not the goal, goal is 89kg, so long way to go. Just think how long I took to
get here.

new record, not impressive, but ok for now.

2006-02-19T17:04:00.000Z

Not very good bad ending for this series. But hey, I still have time. keep
the good work going, 89 that is the goal. All the best luck.
96.8 - 95.9 - 95.0 - 94.7 - 94.7 - 95.2 - 95.2 - 96.5 - 95.7 - 95.5 - 10/02

Two Pair of expensive glasses!

2006-02-13T21:06:00.000Z

I just bought two pair of expensive glasses from Specsavers. 170 pounds include eye test and ultra clear lens plus two pair of really good looking glasses. But it is very expensive, because I really don't have short sight, yes I do have astigmatism, but really I don't need them. I have to confess, I bought it really for the bit that I can look more academic, and my urge of wasting money. Anyway, attached two photos, just keep a record.

Glasses 1
Glasses 2

weight record

2006-02-06T17:05:00.000Z

That is the result for this round of weight loss, not very impressive, but
reasonable, well, I guess, need keep working hard la, tomorrow is new start.
n/a - n/a - 97.1 - 97 - n/a - 97.5 - 96.2 - 96.8 - 95.8 - 95.8 - 96.8 - 97.3
- 97.3 - 97.9 - 98.6 - 99.6 - 99.9, 21/01

Old Problem, Old Question, One Solution

2005-12-24T21:17:00.000Z

Great News for Christmas, I am officially 98.9 kg again, yes, I was 92.6
before, now at least 6kg up. It is same old problem and question that my
weight going up and down in such dramatic way. Very disappointing, I should
not let my guard down. Weight loss is really one small thing happen in life.
But the failure of this can give me a very good lesson. If you don't go
forward you will fall backward. Which way do you want to take? It is
question I should ask myself every second rather than anything longer than
that.
There is one solution, stop being lazy, stop feeling you done enough, stop
try to stop. Keep Push never stop.

Most Expensive Haircut

2005-10-01T11:34:00.000Z

ok, it is most expensive haircut I ever had before. I am not sure this 12 pounds make me get any prettier, but, the hairdresser is surely nice girl, from the reflection of mirror, I can see what man want to see, sharp and clear. thought I may had haircut and good $$?show, ya 12 pounds is worth it.

Are you Scared

2005-09-22T17:02:00.000Z

When you're in trouble, say nothing and act cool.

I feel I really need some new Air

2005-08-31T22:29:00.000Z

Bob Dylan says:

"You just need to wait a bit longer. In the end, it doesn't matter how long it took to get there, only that you arrived! "

Well, I am really worry about my dissertation, and what I am going to do afterwards. However I guess I have to believe Bob (who is he, let me google it). Looking forward.

A cool Picture to Show ME

2005-08-22T21:54:00.000Z

I think I made this looking quite good. Yes, I know I am not good looking,
but the picture is good layout.

Random Thoughts - you won't understand

2005-04-16T13:48:00.000Z

The world is heavy to carry on one's shoulder. How eager I am to find someone to share the weight.

I want to shout, I am not Strong, and I am weak. Help Me. the world is still turning without stall. Yes, no one care.

Feel very disappointing with my result today. Angry, sadness is all come over to my head. I am so weak. So much need someone tell me I am a strong man? It is strange that I understand no one can help you but yourself, but my heart still can only comfort by the special one. But it just turns to even more disappointing when you realised that you can't rely on that special someone. Is this mistake? I had tried so hard. How can I still have doubts? Why now. Is that true, only when a man at his weakest time, he see the world better and clear. It is sad to face that truth.

Pride, ambitious is killer? No, I disagree at that, they are the driving force of people. Yes, maybe they can kill you, but I rather am not normal. My life is not just to survive, there are duties, and there are responsibilities to Parents, to family and to myself. I will not just survive by destroy my own beliefs. Without beliefs, what is the purpose of life? Nothing.

Something Gain, Something Loss!

2005-03-27T02:47:00.000Z

Something Gain, Something Loss, The world is imperfect.
What is the most important thing to you? dream, or real thing?
Dream is nice, they are there, always there, you think about it, you care about, but they are not real. until the day, dream is become real, it is only a dream, it is intangible. it is nothing.
real thing, they support you, they love you, they care about you. the best of all, they will be there, when no one there. they will be there, when you need them the most. that is call real thing, that is call true love.
am I a man who try to catch dream, or I am a man who want things to be real. I think I pick the real.
dream, sweet dream, I always have you on my mind. but I have to be faithful to my heart, to the real thing, to the real love.
the moral of story - keep it real, don't loss what you have.

You are My Sunshine

2005-03-23T00:42:00.000Z

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.

I'll always love you
And make you happy
If you will only say the same
But if you leave me
To love another
You'll regret it all some day;

China, Holiday, and me.

2005-02-03T15:05:00.000Z

Ladies and gentlemen, the first thing I want to tell you: “yes, I start my weight loss program again.” The reason is that I had a wonderful holiday in China, which mean food holiday.

Love is everywhere, especially in china. I’ve been constantly invited for lunch, Dinner in Restaurant by my relatives. There is this one time; I have eaten in 3 different restaurants within matter of 5 hours (1200 – 1900). You may ask how did I manage that, well, my mother is very good assistant of mine. She kept my schedule very well; make sure that I can go to two dinner parties at least per day.

No wonder my weight is going up to 101.6kg right after I landed back in Aberdeen. That is a lot of weight gain from 95kg before I left.

Regret, for eating so much? No, not really, I have to go. It is cultures things; food is part of our Chinese culture. We have to eat, that is how friend, relatives show their love and appreciation. I just have to take it.

I have to say, I love you my family, you made me feel so much in love. Thank you, for not let me feel left out, after 6 year away from home. Thank you.

To repay you, I just have to work even harder, make a lot of money, and gain a lot of power, and make your life like heaven. (If that ever going to happen).

To Mother: Mum, you are not very thin now. But I love you.

Happy New Year

2005-01-20T14:11:00.000Z

Time is like bitch, past us like wind flow. another year just gone like that. hope you cherish the past, and looking forward to the future. good will always come after the bad.

48 to 36

2004-11-02T07:01:00.000Z

I did some shopping yesterday, the greatest news of all, I have bought a pair of Size 36 Jeans. My God, I am so thin. hahah. Have I tell you that I wear size 48 before. and Have I told u the last time I ask my mother to buy my new trousers, she has to get me size 42. What wonderful achievment! Size 36 I love you.

Reborn Panda

2004-10-23T11:54:00.000Z

I have been sick for past one week. God it is terriable, I couldn't give 96% of
my strenth. but it is great to feel the friendship around you. you can find
love everywhere. How sweet is that!

Why I am not Extraversion type of Person?

2004-10-18T16:11:00.000Z

Ambitious people often engage in social interaction not because they are outgoing (i.e. sociable) or relationship-oriented (i.e. likeable) but rather, because they have an agenda for their interaction (Hogan and Hogan, 1995).

Have Xmas with father

2004-10-12T22:47:00.000Z

I am planing for my trip for Xmas now. Suddenly, Father's image is just come to my thought, I think I really love him, God, I don't know why, the tear is in my eye now. What strange feeling. He is such good man, I wish he can always be healthy. I am like a girl now, too sensitive. Hehe, guess, that is how does human brain works, Chaos. well, tear is dry now, after I type this. Ya, I am still a strong man :D

personality test

2004-10-10T21:33:00.000Z

I do want to tell you, the reader, one of my module for this term is Managing in people, and we guys focus on working psychology.
and here is my personality test after use one of the link my teacher gived to me. I hope it is correct. but hey what I care. My personality is complex. Sometime I think I am crazy. But hey what I know :D
free enneagram test

Loss weight or loss muscle

2004-10-08T18:20:00.000Z

I think the weight loss speed is too fast, just read "men's health", an healthy weight plan only should let you loss about 1kg a week, now I tend to loss much more than that. It could be the reason that I don't feel I am strong enough. I can't lift as much weight as I can do before. Even know that I do think I look better, but a slim me won't be too attractive would I. I think I should slow it down. Increase protein intake and increase weight lifting to gain my muscle mass. Hopefully I can make muscle mass increase with fat burning at the same time. Anyway, I am 97kg now. (use the gym weight scale :D)

over food weekend

2004-10-04T12:36:00.000Z

I only got up 10 this morning. I didn't gain any weight duing weekend. after that large potion of meat, ice cream. Wonderful. So another hell week start from today. 89 i am coming.

Confused, and Disapointment

2004-09-26T16:41:00.000Z

I have just bought a weight scale today, not good news. Just found out my weight is 106.8, that is not good news at all. I don't know what to believe now. the scale in the gym, or my new electronic scale. Man Like me always believe the worst. so, it just mean one thing I have to work harder now. come on I can do it, I can really do it.

Be yourself, and be along

2004-09-24T09:25:00.000Z

has been days to be along now. what I feel, well, I think I actually feel great. Feel that I don't need anybody, but survive. this is wonderful feeling. proved one thing, that man are adaptable. so is ghostpanda. I really hope I can control myself and make myself always focus on the real things. well, another day of myself, looking forward to it.

surprise, surprise

2004-09-22T16:52:00.000Z

let's began this day with several things I have
done today.
1. went to accommodation office ask for flat transfer, well, the flat I am going to transfer to going to cost me 74 pounds a week, that is about 320 something a month, well, I am kind of worry about the money, then, hey, if I don't spend my father's money now, when I am going to spend. well, I may just waste a bit money right now. also it maybe a good thing, so that I can work harder to repay my father's kindness. again, how can I live a place that I can't even see a park. so Garthdee, here I am coming.

2. Great, right after I submit the transfer form, I found myself a gym on the same street of my woolmanhill flat. well, it is small, and old. 35 pounds a month. well, still better than nothing. so I paid my fee right away. now I am worry, should I move to Garthdee, or should I stay. Can't God give me a perfect day.

well, the surprise is, yes, I am 104kg now, 4kg to 100, I am going to work hard in my little gym. Hey, 1oo I am coming.

new uni, new life

2004-09-21T19:22:00.000Z

I am in aberdeen now, quite a different city than other cities I have
been. I think I like it right now. not the best, but good enough for
me. It was long trip to get here, but once arrived, I just don't feel
anything any more. maybe it is good thing. I am pretty much get use to
the place already. hopfully I can know the route better in next few
days. anyway, good luck to me. and happy happy.

Slow Down

2004-09-19T10:29:00.000Z

107.9, the weight loss is slowing down now. I guess I need some extra exercise. 20 mins, 30 mins just not enough. Hope I can find a gym soon in Aberdeen. Combine with longer jogging distance and 1 hour swim. I am sure I can fly pretty much soon.

2004-09-18T10:55:00.000Z

108.5, yes, I am getting there, one way or the other. It is start getting there
now. There is about one day delay, however consider the progress I had,
still reasonable.

Went for jogging, long jog (more than half hour), very tired, and just feel
there is not enough bloody in my head, so my vision, my thought is not great deal of clear while I was on the run.

Looking myself in the mirror, I feel that god, there are still long way to
go. Now I have doubt that 96kg maybe not good enough, maybe I should loss more, but how can I achieve that. I find great difficulty to do it now.
Well, only time can tell. Let's wait and see.

2004-09-17T13:44:00.000Z

109.2 Magic, finally, the weight is starting moving down again. I am so happy. but I think low blood surgar can really effect your body. I feel tired, and headache. this morning, I can't even jog properly. I had to push myself really hard. have to tell you, I do admire myself. :D
I really wish I can so proudly to say I am not fat man. 108 that is tmr's goal.
good luck to me.

2004-09-16T10:28:00.000Z

just checked my weight, not impressive at all, I think I must take too much kcl in last night, the weight stay at 110.4kg, well, nearly same as yesterday. but the good things that I feel great this morning, not so tired like yesterday, maybe my body want to me have a day of rest I think. well, today, I have to be much more strict. hope today can loss 2kg, cos if I have time, I will make another jog tonight.

2004-09-15T15:56:00.000Z

Good News, Today is a great day. I have the lowest weight since I don't know how long ago(at least 8 years). 110kg what a magic number, I am happy, I am so happy. But this time I will push it until the end, 96kg, yes, that is the goal, I will reach it once for all. Can you believe it, since 12/09/2004 I have loss about 1kg per day. well, history is great reflection of your progress. let me show you that.
10/2000 - 10/2001 ....... 142 - 128
10/2001 - 10/2002 ....... 138 - 129
10/2002 - 10/2003 ....... 138 - 120
10/2003 - 09/2004 ....... 120 - 110
predicate weight on 30th september/2004 ............95kg

2004-09-10T14:25:00.000Z

Have been change the pages to make it have same style as the home page, I hope these change can make me look a bit better (i know, nothing can change my uglyness now :D)
anyway, I hope people like it.

2004-06-26T02:41:00.000Z

What a day? I think I really can start a company for home moving now. Super strong man with heart of gold, god how wonderful is that. People should happy if they have friend like me.

2004-01-05T18:46:00.000Z

well most likely you won't see the difference, but my website is hosting on this new server now. I call it pandahost. we are going to serve our friend to start their website as well, and going to start a new log which will record our growing history step by step.

2003-11-22T17:10:00.000Z

Well, still reading the letter from her, and thinking the voice of her, her image is still so blur to me. She said she will read my web site, but can she understand what I say. she said I am in her heart, but how come I can't feel the closeness. I will forget about her, I will forget that blur image of her. not worth it, that was just a dream, not worth it, dream can never come true. not worth it, I will wake up from dream, now.

2003-11-13T00:59:00.000Z

Feel so bad today, Feel so Lonly today, Feel so no mood to feel today. There are so many things in my head now, there are so many little things make me feel depressing, really don't know what to do. I think time like this you really need talk to someone. How come I can't find a friend.

2003-09-12T12:41:00.000Z

When Dream Gone, there is Panda, When Life gone, There is Ghost. - Ghost Panda
always under pressure, from who?
always unhappy, but why?
always think about you, so what?
always want more, more things, more love, more money, more... can't get it.
when you ask that many question, when you think about that many things.
it is time, time to do things without thinking..
why?
cos you don't care.........................

2003-08-13T16:16:00.000Z

just read a love story, :D god love story, anyway, it seems quite good, and it is in chinese. so if anyone who understand chinese, go to read it, if the link is still there.
love story in chinese

2003-06-22T16:49:00.000Z

Another day past. Another sun rise. Time is keeping pass from me. My life is getting shorter, I have all the dreams, I have all my future ahead me. but I ask why, what is the true meaning of life? I just keep ignoring the end, yes the end, I am thinking about future, but try ignore the end of my life. Can I say that "I am proud my life", no I can't. Can I let other people envy me, yes I can, but what is that got to do with my life. Life is about yourself, and is about how can you make happiness not just you but everybody.
I like the quote. "if I am only for myself who am I. if I am not for myself, who will for me, if not now, when." I am the greatest, I am the king, and I can do whatever I like to do. so let's do something meaningful. be a fighter, not coward. stop talking there is nothing need to talk, get some action.
Hai Tao

2003-05-23T22:44:00.000Z

How come nobody else comes in and leaves msg now...

Anyway we saw Matrix today, 6 of us... was really fun... Haitao and Zuoxuan called for rescue since they went out to get candy but forgot to take tkts with them... And guess what, we actually went into the cinema before the last session ended!!! Anxious people huh??... hahaha. :p Haitao seemed to have a great understanding of the whole movie/concept while the rest of us seemed very confused... real IT guy isn't he? He said most people in the movie were programs and viruses... then Zuoxuan said what if Haitao himself is a virus waiting to be deleted... kewl kewl... kekeeekeke... :) Haitao and Zhangning were arguing with each other about the movie, Haitao went on and on... seemed like he knew everything about it... really convincing... Zuoxuan said he likes seeing Haitao buildng up arguments and persuading other people... I have to agree with that too... that's when Haitao's power and charm show... : )

Gotta go back to study now... 3 more exams next week... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ><"

2003-05-23T22:35:00.000Z

After Matrix
After watching matrix, there are just so many thought come up to my mind. So what is real world, what we fighting for, isn’t that all the wonderful things, and everything is just illusion.
Yes, Purpose, we live and fight for the purpose of life. Without that, life won’t be same; life will be just too blank for us.

2003-05-21T23:05:00.000Z

There is no such thing as Right and Wrong, All depends on circumstances

How do we judge some thing as right and wrong? How do we know what is right and what is wrong?

We learn the correct way to behave in our own society; the habits, customs, language and manners we use which are acceptable in our society may unacceptable in other society.

Our sense of what is right and what is wrong depends upon many things, -upbringing, parental attitudes, friends, what type of environment we grown up in and live in now, and so on. Morality is therefore very complicated. What we considered is right, some body else might see as wrong.
In the end we have to make our own decisions about what is right or wrong. We all have the ability to make our own moral judgements. It means that there is no fixed moral code.

Things always have a good side and a bad side. For example, if you didn’t give money to a beggar, people might think you were unsympathetic, but by not giving him the money you may make that beggar get a new job and a new life.

Only the computer or pieces of electronics which can use “1” and “0”, true or false to process information, the human brain works in a much more complicated way. There are so many possibilities for the human brain to process before it can judge right and wrong.

For example, two men fight. Both of them are always looking for excuses to prove they are innocent. They both say they are right. How can we judge them? By what? By their speech! By their good looks? However most people will judge them by the moral code of our own society. But I don’t think so! As we know there is no perfect person, so how can imperfect people make a perfect moral code? How can people use an imperfect moral code to judge a person?

From the point above it shows clearly how weak our moral code, so we can not judge everything. Let history to judge us. Whenever you try to judge a person or other society, please remember that you will never know the right and wrong.

There are so many things that can prove my opinion.

Even in Christianity only god can be perfect, so imperfect human will never make perfect judgements. So there is no such thing as right and wrong, all depends on circumstances.

2003-05-19T23:19:00.000Z

second day went out for dinner, God, I feel fat, I feel I need a lot excercise. tomorrow morning is another working day, can I hit the target. I hope I can, then I can just try to sell pre-pay phone. got a lot things need to read, notes, book, there are just too much things need to read now.
anyway, life is going on.
Wish for World peace :D

2003-05-15T09:46:00.000Z

shouted to chenchen(cousin) from last night until today, God he really set me on fire, he lost his PS2, He lost his Mp3 player, and he lost 200 pounds to someone he doen't even know the surname. I wish I can just kick him. but hey he is not my son, and my uncle will sort him out. Why can't I just have peace and quiet day. Great, I just talked to his headmaster, now the things is not on my hand. I shall just wait and see what happen next.

2003-05-12T13:18:00.000Z

I reallised that I have been listened this song over and over again, feeling so alike. to the gal I love, to the sun.

I miss you

2003-05-11T20:27:00.000Z

This is Leada... I'm at Haitao's place... Yes, everyday there are pretty gals visiting Haitao's place. Isn't that nice! ^___^" I tried to post msg here yesterday without success, so now I'm kinda forced by Haitao to post one...He says 'sit down and u can start logging in'... haha! Haitao cooked nice meal, rescued me from endless and tiring study... thanks to him. But I'm so full now... feeling sleepy!!! Anyway, nice start, will write more next time.

2003-05-11T00:32:00.000Z

what a day. by the way that was yesterday now, since it is 1.25 am, anyway, only sold 3 phone, not bad, but not the best, my friend Xu Bing beat me, but hey she is pretty may be that is why :D, well, I think I just had a bad day that is all, bad luck all day round. life is moving on. I just hope in 8 hours time I can get more phone out of shop.
money is root of all evil.

2003-05-09T23:09:00.000Z

zuo xuan want to get a web site like my one, but I won't tell him how.

2003-05-09T22:06:00.000Z

zhang ning is here today. we talk about apple computer, but I still think apple is crap, pc rule.

2003-05-09T20:09:00.000Z

well, sai na is here today, she is our friend, me and my flatmate, and she is going to cook us some chicken, well, hopefully it is eatable.

2003-05-09T16:39:00.000Z

Just find these from my diary, well, I think I wrote them on the train to Manchester, but can't remenber it clearly now. anyway, looks quite stupid. ---
what a lovely day, I think I am getting older today, getting thinner, but I think the most is about the future, the future is so unpredictable, the future is mysterious, let time pass, let water run, the world can turning without me, why me, a lonely soul still here, well let god decide about that then.

2003-05-09T16:03:00.000Z

Have to work tomorrow, God, I am so tired, but money is money, and being a sales man can always give you more chance to meet people and talk to people.

2003-05-09T15:35:00.000Z

My name is Gao Yuguang, I am Hai Tao's friend, I own him a lot money. :D

2003-05-09T15:08:00.000Z

To all my Dear Friend, this is first message I post on my web site, I hope you all like my new web site. I haven't really put anything on it yet. but Hey, I am busy, I always have excuse for this. I will post my information to this web site from now on, so if you want to see what am I doing? do check my web site.
Have a good day.