Random Thoughts - you won't understand

The world is heavy to carry on one's shoulder. How eager I am to find someone to share the weight.

I want to shout, I am not Strong, and I am weak. Help Me. the world is still turning without stall. Yes, no one care.

Feel very disappointing with my result today. Angry, sadness is all come over to my head. I am so weak. So much need someone tell me I am a strong man? It is strange that I understand no one can help you but yourself, but my heart still can only comfort by the special one. But it just turns to even more disappointing when you realised that you can't rely on that special someone. Is this mistake? I had tried so hard. How can I still have doubts? Why now. Is that true, only when a man at his weakest time, he see the world better and clear. It is sad to face that truth.

Pride, ambitious is killer? No, I disagree at that, they are the driving force of people. Yes, maybe they can kill you, but I rather am not normal. My life is not just to survive, there are duties, and there are responsibilities to Parents, to family and to myself. I will not just survive by destroy my own beliefs. Without beliefs, what is the purpose of life? Nothing.