Confused, and Disapointment

I have just bought a weight scale today, not good news. Just found out my weight is 106.8, that is not good news at all. I don't know what to believe now. the scale in the gym, or my new electronic scale. Man Like me always believe the worst. so, it just mean one thing I have to work harder now. come on I can do it, I can really do it.

Be yourself, and be along

has been days to be along now. what I feel, well, I think I actually feel great. Feel that I don't need anybody, but survive. this is wonderful feeling. proved one thing, that man are adaptable. so is ghostpanda. I really hope I can control myself and make myself always focus on the real things. well, another day of myself, looking forward to it.

surprise, surprise

let's began this day with several things I have
done today.
1. went to accommodation office ask for flat transfer, well, the flat I am going to transfer to going to cost me 74 pounds a week, that is about 320 something a month, well, I am kind of worry about the money, then, hey, if I don't spend my father's money now, when I am going to spend. well, I may just waste a bit money right now. also it maybe a good thing, so that I can work harder to repay my father's kindness. again, how can I live a place that I can't even see a park. so Garthdee, here I am coming.

2. Great, right after I submit the transfer form, I found myself a gym on the same street of my woolmanhill flat. well, it is small, and old. 35 pounds a month. well, still better than nothing. so I paid my fee right away. now I am worry, should I move to Garthdee, or should I stay. Can't God give me a perfect day.

well, the surprise is, yes, I am 104kg now, 4kg to 100, I am going to work hard in my little gym. Hey, 1oo I am coming.

new uni, new life

I am in aberdeen now, quite a different city than other cities I have
been. I think I like it right now. not the best, but good enough for
me. It was long trip to get here, but once arrived, I just don't feel
anything any more. maybe it is good thing. I am pretty much get use to
the place already. hopfully I can know the route better in next few
days. anyway, good luck to me. and happy happy.

Slow Down

107.9, the weight loss is slowing down now. I guess I need some extra exercise. 20 mins, 30 mins just not enough. Hope I can find a gym soon in Aberdeen. Combine with longer jogging distance and 1 hour swim. I am sure I can fly pretty much soon.

108.5, yes, I am getting there, one way or the other. It is start getting there
now. There is about one day delay, however consider the progress I had,
still reasonable.

Went for jogging, long jog (more than half hour), very tired, and just feel
there is not enough bloody in my head, so my vision, my thought is not great deal of clear while I was on the run.

Looking myself in the mirror, I feel that god, there are still long way to
go. Now I have doubt that 96kg maybe not good enough, maybe I should loss more, but how can I achieve that. I find great difficulty to do it now.
Well, only time can tell. Let's wait and see.

109.2 Magic, finally, the weight is starting moving down again. I am so happy. but I think low blood surgar can really effect your body. I feel tired, and headache. this morning, I can't even jog properly. I had to push myself really hard. have to tell you, I do admire myself. :D
I really wish I can so proudly to say I am not fat man. 108 that is tmr's goal.
good luck to me.

just checked my weight, not impressive at all, I think I must take too much kcl in last night, the weight stay at 110.4kg, well, nearly same as yesterday. but the good things that I feel great this morning, not so tired like yesterday, maybe my body want to me have a day of rest I think. well, today, I have to be much more strict. hope today can loss 2kg, cos if I have time, I will make another jog tonight.

Good News, Today is a great day. I have the lowest weight since I don't know how long ago(at least 8 years). 110kg what a magic number, I am happy, I am so happy. But this time I will push it until the end, 96kg, yes, that is the goal, I will reach it once for all. Can you believe it, since 12/09/2004 I have loss about 1kg per day. well, history is great reflection of your progress. let me show you that.
10/2000 - 10/2001 ....... 142 - 128
10/2001 - 10/2002 ....... 138 - 129
10/2002 - 10/2003 ....... 138 - 120
10/2003 - 09/2004 ....... 120 - 110
predicate weight on 30th september/2004 ............95kg

Have been change the pages to make it have same style as the home page, I hope these change can make me look a bit better (i know, nothing can change my uglyness now :D)
anyway, I hope people like it.